happy

so i have many things in my life that make me really happy, so today i am going to make a happy list cuz my last posts have been very depressing!

so i have recently found a new love in my life....

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS the tv series!

it is soooo good. i am pretty much obsessed with it and have watched 45 episodes in 2 weeks so i'm really cool.

tim riggins is my true love, he is so beautiful with his long flowy hair... yummy.

if you haven't watched it yet, i highly recommend it!

mumf and sons. i can't get enough of them right now.

i think i have listened to 'the cave' about 100 times in the last 24 hours. the lyrics are amazing.

"i will hold on hope...and i'll find strength in pain, and i'll change my ways i'll know my name as its called again"

"cause i need freedom now and i need to know how to live my life as its meant to be"

also, awake my soul and little lion man are amazing too!

i have found a new appreciation for nature. i still despise bugs and bees, but being outside

and enjoying this beautiful weather has made me really happy! fall is my absolute favorite season when all the leaves are changing and the weather is still warm, but a little chilly i looove it! i went mountain biking with my dad and jeffrey and besides the fact that i am so out of shape and it kicked my butt, i really enjoyed it! im hoping to go again before it gets too cold. i also want to go hike to lake mary it looks so pretty there.

my fam always makes me happy and im really lucky and blessed to be part of such a great one.

and lastly, my backyard. weird i know but it is so nice to just go out there after work and go swimming and enjoy the sun. its been really great to me these last couple weeks.

rainbows and poems.. no homo

i love rainbows. more than ever now because of this line of 'if i die young'

"lord make me a rainbow i'll shine down on my mother,

she'll know im safe with you when she stands under my colors"

every time i see rainbows now, i feel like its brynn letting me know she is happy and safe.

this past weekend, me and some peeps went to vegas, which originally brynn and i had planned 
on doing for my 21st birthday. on our way down we saw the most gorgeous double rainbow. the first
 rainbow was so bright throughout the whole arch, i have never seen one so bright before. i wish i 
could have gotten a picture of it! i know it was brynn letting me know she was with us on our trip.

also, when reading that girls blog about her grandpa, she posted the most beautiful

poem that really hit home for me. it was exactly the words i needed to hear.

enjoy :)

To my dearest family, some things Id like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, theres no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, I welcome you.
Its good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.

I need you here so badly, you are part of my plan.
There is so much that we can do, to help our mortal man.
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the days chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and Id like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night....My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented... that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when its time for you to go...from that body to be free. 

Remember you're not going...you're coming here to me.